Do you sometimes feel so insignificant; like you’re that seaweed being thrashed around by the currents, amidst the coral reefs that get all the attention and awe? Do you sometimes feel like you get shrugged off when you try to share your thoughts, that your ideas get demanded and brushed off; like the squeal from a worn out rubber duck?
For the longest while I’ve always thought it was me being weird and loner-ish, the way I preferred to hang out in smaller groups, and how I’d always be the invisible silent one in groups..
People always either thought I was anti-social, uninterested and just plain stuck up in some extreme cases.. This was something I’ve always struggled to understand about myself.
Recently finished “The Introvert Advantage” by Marti Olsen Laney Psy. D. Was pleasantly reassured that I wasn’t alone in my weird-ness.
“What a lovely surprise to finally discover how unlonely being alone can be.” Ellen Burstyn
Cue: Popeye – *DRUMROLL* please..
Still remember those weeks where you’re booked back to back with social meetings and the amount of energy required to just be YOU during these sessions. Neither was it cause these experiences weren’t enjoyable nor was it cause they weren’t worth your embracing, but there was simply no more gigabytes on your memory card.
Result of forcefully putting yourself out there and pushing it was akin to taking that last few sips of beer when you’re at the verge of puking, thinking “I’ve already come this far, just this few sips won’t matter”.. And that’s when it ends up in a foamy eruption of mess that leaves you feeling horrid and burnt out.
“But your solitude will be a support and a home for you, even in the midst of very unfamiliar circumstances, and from it you will find all your paths.” – Rainer Maria Rilke
Having time alone to recharge is of utmost importance to an introvert. Just that mere act of having time to do nothing, wind down, recollect experiences, regain emotional and mental balance after all that external simulation.. The difference this makes is really mind blowing. So don’t feel ashamed of needing to ask for a time out in life.
“Your sacred space is where you can find yourself again and again.” – Joseph Campbell
It’s alright to take that little walk out of your comfort zone once in a while – to experience this wonderful journey we’re all embarking on, called life.
Something to think about.